The Life that Once Was

Melissa hid her face from the world, consumed with her emotions feeling that no

one or anything understood her. Her parents taught her of a world in which

friendships lasted forever, love was always present and hurt was nonexistent.

Growing up as a child she accepted that this was how life was, no killing or hurt

just happiness and contentment.

    She however opened up her eyes and the scales of happiness, joy and the

fairytale life that she presumed to be what each and everyone experienced left her

eyes. She had flashbacks of standing over her best friend’s body after watching her

being shot in the head by a policeman. Memories that stalk her mind day and night

as to how within one second her friend could lose her life. She came to know

failure and rejection other aspects that she wasn’t taught had existed.

      The innocence of her childhood, the life that she knew, which was as tranquil

as the sea often was bow billowed and roared as the storms of life approached the

clouds of reality took center stage and the fairytale life of her childhood of just

love and a peaceful environment rolled away. The soothing sounds of the hymns of

the birds were now replaced by the sounds of cries and gunshots and police sirens.

Love, unity, happiness, joy and peace were all ingredients of the life that once was

the life of her child hood. Broken friendships, disappointments, war, disunity and

sadness now represented the life she now had to know.

My Cry

She says she is my mother but she screams her feelings

She judges me foreverything  I do negativity is the only thing she exerts

She knows not of who I am all she knows is my name

You call yourself a mother? It goes deeper than the word itself

Hugs,I love you,I care are never words I hear you speak.

The love I should learn from you I have to learn on my own

Hurt seems the natural occurance in my daily walks as thats what I learnt most from you

I never thought I would cry so much for someone who should naturally love me

Tears fall like storms as my lips shake like the bounding of a earthquake on a frail wall

I cry not because I'm weak

I cry because of the strength that shines through me

Sexuality in Jamaica

Really though times are really changing for the worse in this our land of wood and water,Jamaica.  Long gone are the days when a man would feel comfortable admitting that he was a homosexual or that he engages in oral sex.Now a days when introducing yourselves it like you just have to ask straight up are you gay?...cause it seems like sexuality in Jamaica is changing rapidly and certain sexual acts that were usually frowned upon are now at the fore front and if you're not engaging in them its as if your a deviant.

Decisions

SUPPOSE THE SUN DECIDES TO STOP SHINING BY DAY
AND THE MOON BY NIGHT WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO US
THIS CAN'T HAPPEN UNLESS GOD TELLS THEM TO
THEN WHO TELLS U WAT DECISIONS TO MAKE
PARENTS,TEACHERS AND FOR SOME, FRIENDS
EARTHLY PEOPLE SHOULD NOT HAVE POWER OR CONTROL OVER US
WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO MAKE DECISIONS FOR OURSELVES
WE ARE DEPENDENT AREN'T WE?
AS FOR ME I'M MAKING DECISIONS FOR ME NOT FOR PEOPLE
BECAUSE THE DECISIONS WE MAKE AFFECT US FIRST AND THE MOST BEFORE THEY THEN AFFECT OTHERS
BEFORE WE MAKE DECISIONS WE NEED TO THINK IT THROUGH LONG AND HARD
AND REMEMBER MAKE IT FOR YOU 

It's just what it is

YOU TOUCH ME IN A GENTLE WAY THAT I JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH
YOU HOLD ME IN UR ARMS SO CONFIDENT I CAN'T HELP BUT TRUST
AND WHEN U LEAN OVER TO KISS ME I CAN'T HELP BUT LUST
I WANT TO KNOW WHEN I WAKE UP YOU'LL BE RIGHT THERE BESIDE ME TO GREET ME WITH A SMILE
I DON'T WANT THIS TO BE A ONE TIME LOVE THAT QUICKLY FADES AND IS NO MORE WITH US
I WANT IT TO BE THE LOVE OF THOSE IN FAIRY TALES I DON'T WANT TO BE THE ONE YOU PLAYED WITH
IF YOU LOVE ME AS MUCH AS U SAY U DO YOU''LL NEVA DISRESPECT ME
I'M THE TYPE WHO'LL SIT AND CRY MY PAIN AWAY BUT ONCE U SCAR MY HEART THAT SCAR WILL NEVA GO AWAY

Sorrow

   If i were God i wouldn't have made people
to me making people was a mistake
we are so selfish at times we only think of our own happiness an dnt think of others
we jump to some rash decisions without thinking them through first
then 2,3 days or even a year lata u realise u made a mistake
God gives chances and God understands all things then if we are made in Gods image why aren't we like God
We dnt give chances and we aren't understanding
But when further down u realise the mistake u made my back will never turn back in ur direction again

Jamaica

  My heart is saddened at times when I think of how Jamaica is these days-the land of wood and water is now known to be the land of crime,corruption and poverty. Where did we go wrong? Are our leaders to be blamed?
It is often said that a nation built and founded on Jesus Christ will prosper then why are things becoming worse and worse simply our leaders think for themselves God is no longer the center of their plannings and hence everything they do falls to pieces.In order to get things done our leaders need to put aside their selfish thoughts put God and the people before themselves and stop fighting for power but rather use their power for the better good of the country.

The Life I once had

A little girl who hid because of her insecurities,the little girl who begged to have a friend

She would dream of a world in which happiness was the order of the day and no longer sadness and despair

She grew up thinking life was somewhat of a fairytale she would meet her prince charming and live happily ever after.

Then heart ache took centre stage and love seemed none existent once in love and then love was lost

People become self absorbed,people care no more of how they treat others as long as their own happiness is present

Who thought that people would actually find joy in seeing others sad

I was never thought to give up even when love seems to no longer be the order of the day

With clenched hands and btiting my lips and a continour prayer God will never leave me to believe that this is what life is about

Better is out there better shall come one day and the life I once had 

The life of a child with dreams of happiness and continous love

Is actually the life that can be......

What to do

Life seems to have more and more problems each day
What to do what to do?
To make it seem all ok
I ponder these thoughts as I wake in the morning
And going back to bed i'm still pondering
Sometimes people seem to have no care in this world and we grudge them
But sometimes having cares doesn't makes us any less than anyone else
Its those cares that help us have wonderful stories to inspire others

Saccihana:Life?

I sit under the tree at the back of my house and think about what the hell my life is about.
It hurts my heart to see what its come to the heart aches the illnesses the pain that i've caused people.
Then when I read my bible and see what the future holds what I see is more destruction before blessings I will behold.Life shouldn't be taken for granted my best friend lost hers when she was only seven. Everyday I pass the place they killed you I reflect how it could have been me you saved my life and sometimes I wish you hadn't so everyday I wake up I live for you and me. Tomorrow is not granted to noone.Friends come and go boyfriends come and go but at the end of the day its me alone to face my trials. You make ur life wat it is not the people around you. I will overcome each obstacles the devil places before me no matter what you people do to me I am determined to make it in life.If parents forsake me friends forsake me the one up above will always love me.