She says she is my mother but she screams her feelings
She judges me foreverything I do negativity is the only thing she exerts
She knows not of who I am all she knows is my name
You call yourself a mother? It goes deeper than the word itself
Hugs,I love you,I care are never words I hear you speak.
The love I should learn from you I have to learn on my own
Hurt seems the natural occurance in my daily walks as thats what I learnt most from you
I never thought I would cry so much for someone who should naturally love me
Tears fall like storms as my lips shake like the bounding of a earthquake on a frail wall
I cry not because I'm weak
I cry because of the strength that shines through me
I know the feeling. My dad has his moments where he say's things like that. Unfortunately the hurt feels long lasting. Most likely because somewhere in my heart I expect him to be more understand of my short comings because well...he's my dad. He has helped me a lot which makes the contradicting feeling more harder to deal with. I find understanding the person takes some of the pain away. When he starts with his foolishness I have to try try and try to remind myself that he does not have anything personal against me because he does the same with some of his friend. Again this has somewhat soften the blow. Thanks for sharing this, it meant a lot.
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